A little Somethin' Somethin'

Ahhh, okay. I just need to clear my mind. Did I ever tell you all that life sucks? There has been a lot of ups and downs in the past year I don't know how much more I can take. I never even got around to finishing my last blog due to an over abundance of work put on my shoulders. But enough of that.....let's talk about today. Today has been a thoroughly enjoyable day. Thank God. I did miss my first class to start it off badly because my alarm didn't go off, but I have had a good day other than that. I was sitting in Panera break an hour ago and some guy came up to me and asked if he could look at my sketch book. He thought my drawings were awesome and I have been working on one that I am giving Johnny Depp in a month. CAN'T wait for that!! But this guy is an art teacher over at MSU, the school I attend, and he said that he wants me in his art class. He said I have an amazing amount of talent and he would love to work with me. He even said I could opt out of some class I am over qualified for so I don't waste my money. That makes me so happy. I finally have some days off from work to clear my mind and think. I have been talking to this guy named Josh. He is my friend Sarah's friend. He is cool but I am just not into him. I try to move on to someone else because I know that it would be a healthy decision for me, but no one compares. :( I don't know what to do because this guy really likes me and I feel like I may be leading him on and I just don't wanna hurt his feelings. What if I am making a huge mistake? I don't know, I have I had so many guys flirt with me and ask me out. I have this guy I work with named Adam who desperately wants to go out with me, but I say no. I won't even let him have my number but each time I see him he is persistant. I will give you three reasons why he is off my list of men. 1- He is on probation for drugs. 2- He has a kid. 3- and this is the biggest one....he has a girlfriend already. He says oh I will dump her for you. I say no,......too much baggage. But most of all I have had 3 black guys say to me, Hey Sexy please let me get to know you. You're so beautiful I just have to know you. Seriously!!!! Why???!!! I don't get it. I don't get what they see. I was in a hoodie and jeans when 2 of them hit on me. I am not that pretty. Yes I have lost a huge amount of weight but I still don't see what they see. I just want one guy and until he tells me it's never gonna happen, I am not giving up on him.