Finally...

Ahhhhhhh. It is not a bad ahhh but a good one. I am so relaxed with life and finally feel like I have something to live for. Yeah everyone has stressors in life but we need to learn to forget about the small things and see the bigger things in life. I feel like I have grown so much as a person in the last year especially the past 4 months. Like I mentioned in my last post, I have the best boyfriend ever. I don't go a day without seeing him. I really am sooo lucky. I only starting talking to Sam while I was going to California to go the Pirates of the Caribbean premiere. We talked everyday on the phone while I was gone and when I got back we went on a couple of dates and made it official. I am no longer lonely and I never have to worry about being lonely again. The only thing that stresses me out is not having money but money is such a small thing to worry about. I know that God will make sure I have what I need to get myself through this troubled time. It had been a long time since I had gone to church and Sam got me to go again. We go every sunday and sunday night we have a bible study with his parents and some friends. I feel like a new woman. I feel like I have more to live for like I mentioned earlier. I know that I will be fine and things seem to be falling into place in my financial need. I finally got ahold of my lawyer today and I am getting some back pay from Sonic. I am finally going to get paid some workman's comp and soon my loan money will be in and I will be able to get me that car my brother has been helping me get. I can't wait. My car sucks so bad and I am tired of wasting all the money I DO get on gas to get back and forth to school. Also I have decided to change my major at school. I am officially going to be a Computer Animator. I will move to California and work for Disney or Dreamworks creating cartoons for young children. When I get to California I am going to look into some acting jobs and try to make my name known. People keep telling me to go for my goals and dreams and I think I can do it. I think I have what it takes. I just think God was telling to change something and I think I am making the right decision. I am ready so wish me luck friends!!!!!

A new life

It has been at least 7 months since I have checked this blog out. I can't believe how retarded I was writing what I did about that guy I thought I loved. Yes he is my friend and always will be and I don't have to like his girlfriend still after all that I have been through, but I love my life now. I have been dating my boyfriend Sam for 4 months now and I couldn't be happier. He loves me for me and only me. He would never cheat on me and that is something I need. I don't need a cheater in my life, and I don't see how other women put up with it when they know its going on. I broke my arm 2 months ago working at Sonic. I was skating and I tripped on a crack in the concrete. I have been through 2 splints, 2 casts, and now I have a brace on. I think I am going to have to get another cast on cause this brace makes my wrist hurt. Sam has been there for me through all my bad times and he knows about my past. He knows how crazy I was for this other guy but is supportive of me still being friends of his family. I still love his sisters and brother because they are good friends. I feel as though they are family. I haven't been working very much because Sonic can't use me with a broken arm so I have had to face paint for cash and sell some old clothes I grew out of at Plato's Closet. I am happy with my life, you know who you are if you are reading this. I am not childish and if you were an adult you would not follow my posts. I am not an idiot and I know how to use a computer. Have a nice life and I hope I don't hear from you ever again. You won't hear from me, oh and nice acne.