My Life as of Now

I have decided to make a blog in order to vent my feelings and get some things off my chest. I don't care who reads this, even if I hate your guts, because it just goes to show that some of us really don't give a shit what you think of us. My love life, well what there is, I really don't have one. Three months ago the love of my life moved away. I think that he was pushed and lied to in order to move a thousand miles away from his family plus me. The family is what concerns me the most. How could anyone move away from the ones that love him most, to be somewhere he doesnt want to be, where he clearly expressed that he hated this beep beep? I don't know and I hope this individual reads this because it only makes me laugh at you. I don't care if its not nice, if you can brag about being such a bitch, then I can just say what I want on my own blog in order to piss you off. Well you see this guy, we were friends before anything else. I met him back of February of '09 at school and I didnt find out until maybe 3 to 4 weeks had passed by that he had a "gf", if that's what she should be called. Well she moved away about 8 months ago and while she was gone he and I were sort of seeing each other. He made the moves on me. I think that he should have broken up with her like he said he was going to before he starting kissing and making out with me. Well you know in the heat of the moment things got out of hand and it went further than it should have. When that happens and when he says that he loved me and cared a lot about me before any of this went down, one would expect more from him. I thought he wanted to be with me and apparently that's what his siblings thought too. His siblings really dislike this "gf" of his that forced him to move 1000 miles away. I am really close to every single one of his family members. It just sucks that he left and I am so depressed. I almost cry everyday and this bitch of a "gf" would just laugh and wouldn't care less how I am feeling. She has him now and I have to deal with it one way or another. Don't think that suicide hasn't crossed my mind, because it has. I love him so much. He has known my feelings since gosh I don't know when. I told him that it is probably bad that I feel that way and he said, "Why is that bad?" I should have known when he told me to keep it between me and him that something was up. Every time this girls name would come up he would bash her. Talking about her bad habits, the way she cleans house, and just plain how damn rude she is. I don't know why he moved? He hasn't spoken to me in a long time and my mom got so mad that she emailed this girl. I didn't know my mom did that but I get stuck with the blame. Maybe if this "gf" would keep the people on her FB blocked, like she had before, then she wouldn't hear things she didn't want to. But now that its all out in the open, yes hun, he has been cheating on you, and you're a fool to stay with someone who doesn't treat you with respect and love you. Cause clearly cheating is a sign of I DONT LOVE YOU! Especially when I found it that it wasn't just with me but many others, throughout your whole relationship. You must be a horrible gf.