So, I am at school. Bored. I hate having to have to wake up everyday at 6 am to go to school, but at least I can say I am doing something with my life. I had Ballet this morning and I know that I am not much of a dancer. I am hoping that things change soon and my muscles start working like they need to in order to become better at dancing. I think it's this whole thing about me being really shy and not so confident. I used to be a little more confident than what I was, but all that has changed in the last couple of months. I just don't feel confident in myself anymore. I am really depressed and I wish that things would make a turn for the better, but they just haven't been. I am in school which is a good thing and I just got a job working at a Sonic in Springfield, but my life just feels empty. I have no one to share it with anymore. I haven't really had the time nor the gas money to make it into town to hang out with my friends. Dani was trying to set me up with this guy but I am not interested. I have no interest in anyone else at this moment. I would rather be alone to focus on myself, but I hate being lonely. I guess just haven't found that one to make me happy and do things for me. When I like someone I put every thought and action towards making him happy but I never thought about myself. Was that person really making me happy? I thought so, maybe I was naive, but I thought he loved me or at least cared deeply for me. When you say you love someone, I think you would expect it to mean something. I don't want to be set up with anyone, I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I just need to express my feelings because I am tired of holding them in. I just wish things were different and that things would go the way that they were said they were going to go. I know that everything happens for a reason and God has plans for me, but I am just tired of waiting and being alone. I wish things would just get better for me this gosh darn time.